Saturday, October 29, 2011

An update a month keeps the insanity away

Wuwuwu... Lama sungguh rasanya tidak mencoretkan rasa sekeping hati di laman sesawang ini. (Apsal terase macam cikgu BM plak nih. Haish...) It's been a while. Selalu hapdet pn mesti la nk taching kan. Hehe. At least we know I am still a human being. It's been 5 months now. Tak tau la nape, tapi aku terase best dpt job itu. Walaupun tidak secare tetap. Tapi aku enjoy. Haha. Runs in the family kot. Tapi hagak sedih la jugak. Terkecundang tatkala result KPLI keluar. Huhu... Adakah kerana mereka telah dapat menghidu kekejaman gue? Haha.

Why do I like my insecure, unreliable and unconfirmed job? Tak tau la. GPK 1 skola tu pn siap tanye lg tiap kali aku renew kontrak. Best ke jadi cikgu ni? Aku pn dgn penuh rase seperti ingin terkentut sekuat hati menjawab, "BOLEHLA...". Boleh tak? Haha. The job load does kill. Tapi there is a subtle feel yg mengatakan aku enjoy. Well, who cares?

~PoJenG UnLimiTeD~

Kemasukan ini sebenarnye tahun lepas, tapi aku terjumpe dalam draft. So, utk tidak membazirkan kemasukan, (membazir itu kan amalan syaitan...) aku postkan je la. Rasenye kemasukan ni bulan 5 tahun 2010. Eheh~

Bermulanya kembali satu cerita...

Fufufu... Lame sungguh tidak menghapdet blog milik peribadi ini. Haha. Nampak sgt kerajinan itu tidak wujud sejak sekian lame. Hehe. Ape nk buat, aku bukan orang yang dilahirkan utk menjadi transmitter berita2 terkini hiburan sensasi Pak Sameon kedai kopi.

(disclaimer:kepade sesiape yg bername sameon,jgn terase ye.tidak dituju secare spesifik pade sesiape pn.huhu...)

Banyak perubahan yang telah berlalu sejak kali terakhir kemasukan (entri) blog yg lalu. Hehehe. Kadang2 ade yg menggembirakan, kadang2 ade yg mendukakan. Takpe la kan. Lumrah kehidupan. Kite redha dan usaha utk ape yg patut. Sume tu telah tersurat dan tersirat utk diri masing2, terpulang pada kita utk tafsir, nilai dan simpulkan.

Cukup la tu kemasukan kali ni ye. Mood tak brape nk datang lg. Hehehe. Hingga di lain waktu dan masa. (^_^)

Friday, March 5, 2010

5/3/2010 @ 1.25 a.m.

salam... hello there! it's been a while since i created this blog and my last entry. it's been too long, ain't it? been busy with work? not actually. maybe just too tired from the works and the daily routines. but hey, it's worth it. (^_^)

tonight, the urge is coming again. the urge to express oneself through the blog. hmm... i wonder.

have u ever thought about dying? well, i've been thinking bout the topic. recently. two of my uni friends have passed away. at the age of 24. ayan and cromok. maybe with their passings i started to ponder. what is life anyway? haven't been thinking on the matter. who knows, maybe our deaths are just around the corner. only by death will people realise about life. hmm...

yesterday was supposed to be my late father's birthday. suddenly i feel all emotional and all. just realised it in the evening. the 4th march date brings back memories. memories that makes me realised i am just a human being.

taken into account of yesterday's date, it's been 10 months since my dad passed away. there is just too many things i wanted to apologize to him, but maybe i have been a little too late. so at least we can prove as the saying goes, you will not cherish the moments with someone until that someone is not around us anymore. sometimes i cried whenever i think of my dad. i remember all the rebellion i had against him. the joy, the sad, happy times, troubled times. it's been coming back for the past hours. maybe i have not been a good son to him. but one thing that he left me, the experience on becoming a human being. thanks dad. i miss u so much, it really hurts me deeply...

well, at least i get to see him before he exhales his last breath. at least i get to hear his last words. i've been lucky enough to know him as my father, whether i realised it or not. there's just too many that i have regretted in my life. not being able to show him the picture of my graduation day. not being able to give him the money i have earned when i have started working. not being able to show my love again to him. ever again. but still, he is not returning back to this world. all that i can do is keep on the journey that lies ahead of me. i will make him proud. i will.

i still remember the moment of his last breath. if the nurse come up to you and said, "dear, your father is gone...", how would you feel? how do you react to such words? i tried to be strong, but still, i cannot bear the news being told. i broke down eventually when i called my mom telling the news. tears flowing through the eyes. it is the only moment that cannot be undone, even when u have tried so hard to stop it. so folks, please appreciate every moment you spend with your parents, your siblings, your family, your friends. because once they are gone, you can never turn back the time.

~PoJenG UnLimiTeD~

Sunday, December 20, 2009

20/12/2009 @11.40 p.m.

Wau. Sgt lame tak hapdet. Hebat. Igtkan nk blog tahun dpn je kan. Haha. Ni bukan takat lumut dh ni, siap gersang trus. Kalo tiup angin konpem pasir beb. Haha. Ape bende la yg aku nk hapdet ye? Aku pn tak tau. Hoho.

Well, mase nk grad ari tuh aku keje jd cikgu ganti kejap. Due bulan tu. Ngajo budak2 tak cukup umo. Haha. Lawak tul. Konon2 poyo la kan nk buat stail cikgu ganas. Last2 masuk kelas kene kerumun gak. Hadoi la. Takley bla. Haha. Tapi sronot la jgk sebab berjaye menghabiskan kontrak kali ni. Lepas SPM dulu sempat gak jadi cikgu. Tp masuk ari Jumaat, ari Isnin dh brenti. Tak cukup umo katenye. Hampeh tul. Haha. Takpe2. bende dh berlalu.

Skarang? Tgh training utk menjadi pekerje yg berjaya. Haha. dh 2 minggu dh. Nexwik dh masuk minggu ke-3. Sronok la gak. Cara aku dpt pn takleh bla. Interview pn bole memain. Tak paham aku. Haha. Mungkin sbb interview reramai kot. Syok gile. Takde rase tekanan langsung. First week training blaja pasal soft skill. Sgt best sbb dpt trainer yg cambest dan slamber. Kelas pn happening. Dgn kehadiran 3 teruna terhimpit. Haha. Keje gelak je la dlm kelas. Haha. Tp training 6 bulan tu. Huhu. Layankan je la. Nk mintak keje len? Mintak gak. Kalo dpt, pegi je interview. Tak dpt? Diam2 suda. Haha.

Itu je la kot untuk kali ni. Oh ye, Tahniah kepade rakan2 yg telah bertunang. Brader Joe especially sbb nk kawen this January. Tak tahan dh ke bang? Ahhaha!

~PoJenG UnLimiTeD~